Christmas

That picture is my absolute favorite gift ever. My Thor cup is so awesome! (: I love that Drew got it for me!
This Christmas was far from the best but I had a wonderful time despite all the things that made me break down and cry.
At least my mammaw and Drew made me feel like nothing was wrong. They are the two best people anyone could have in their life.
I love my bap bap! <3

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Thankful

There are so many things to be thankful for and when someone asks you, you may have to take some time to figure out the correct things to say. You don't want to sound superficial or fake and you want to include everyone and everything so you don't hurt anyones feelings but really the first things you think of are what truly mean the most to you and you shouldn't feel bad about that.
I am thankful first and foremost for the fact that I have a roof over my head, a place to call my home. It's sad but true that there are a lot of people who do not have such a basic necessity.
This hits me so close to home because people I have shared a home with are now about to be without one this coming Monday.
Yes, you read that right, my family will have no home.
Not me, but my Mom & my sisters and brothers.
It's heartbreaking really. Mostly I feel the worst for my siblings because in no way shape or form is it their fault and I want to be sure they know that!
Times are tough and my Mom could no longer afford her duplex she has lived in for the past 9 years. She got behind 2 months and her new landlord or whatever they may be gave her an eviction notice on her front door...she appeared in court last Monday and when asked if they would like to give her an extension on how long she had to get out the people flat out said "No we do not"
Now I know, she was behind on her rent, okay...fine, reason to kick her out? Sure whatever but damn can people really be so heartless to only give someone SEVEN days to move out of the home they've had for 9 years?! SEVEN DAYS!! That was it. It blew my mind completely. I've never heard of someone only getting a week to move out! Not only that but as you know, Thanksgiving was this past Thursday...So it was a holiday even and they didn't give them even a smaller amount of time. Ridiculous.
I just wanted to share this story with all of my non-viewers out there and tell you that you need to not take the small things for granted. It could happen to anyone at any time. It's sad and  makes me cry every time I remember my Mom getting into the car crying and telling my youngest brother "So I don't know what we will do now bub."

Please be thankful for all that you have even if it isn't very much because there is someone else in the world who would gladly take your spot any time.

Followed

So, on November 19th I was hanging out with my love. We had been doing laundry all morning long and while we waited on things to finish up we walked to the Dollar Store and I looked around & fell in love with these Spongebob Silly Bandz and also Dinosaur Silly Bandz. Next, we went to my favorite comic book store where I searched and searched for something new and fun to start reading :)
I ended up getting this comic Avengers Academy and we went to the car to read them. It was a pretty good one but then halfway through (or maybe it was on the back cover I can't really remember lol) I notice one of my favorite girl comics that I SHOULD have got lol. The Black Cat...Freaking love her, oh well though maybe next time! :)
Anyways, we finish up the laundry and then decide to go get my bay a hair-cut (well I just thought he had needed a trim because I love his hair long) On our way there though we got on a familiar road and I got excited because I hadn't known it was just the way to the hair dressers place and I said "We're going to see animals!?" That road to me means we are on our way to visit the Lexington Animal Shelter which I love to do even though I always leave sad that I couldn't take one (or all) home with me!
He decides that sure we can go see them so I am filled with excitement, I love animals soo much! We get there (after we almost passed up the road like always lol) and I am instantly drawn to the cats in the room that you can never go in and see which still confuses me to this day but alright lol. While I am looking at these beautiful grown cats I notice this old man who other than his starring seems completely normal. He was dressed nicely, in a light blue button up shirt and khaki pants with his white hair and glasses. I thought maybe he had just been looking at the cats too like I was plus it seemed like he had been standing in line at the counter. Well, Drew decides -lets go look at the 'other' animals first- so we do and I notice the man gets out of line and starts walking behind us towards the room. I tell Drew about the 'weird old man following us' and he laughs. We get to the room and there are just two big fluffy bunnies which upset me because usually there are turtles that I love looking at but that day, just two bunnies! So then the man walks into the room with us....It is a small room and two people makes it tight corners to begin with so when he came in it was awkward for multiple reasons! Drew and I hurry out of the room and I'm like (he is following us hurry!) so we jump into the cat room and I calm myself....theres no way this man is following us right?!
WRONG! While I am playing with the pretty cats I notice I am being watched from outside the door and I tell Drew about it which makes him raise his eyebrows up in shock and confusion! I am literally freaking out now because that is one of my many things I fear, being watched...It makes me panic almost instantly! (I have a lot of anxiety problems which causes my chest to hurt really bad and hurts to breathe and is very difficult to do so at all.) Well, I try to ignore the man and just love on these gorgeous cats who are, some playful, some lazy and flopping around and some both! As I am doing this though when I switch sides to look at all of them the man outside the door does the same. If I go to the right side he is standing outside on the left looking in at me! If I go to the left side you see him walk across the doorway to stand on the right side.
I hurry to try to lose his sight of me and go around to the other side, worried maybe he will come in here too. Drew notices this also and doesn't like it much. When we are on the other side, who appears but the old man! It was one of the worst feelings I had, just being watched and followed by this man was too much for me to handle and I was ready to leave even without seeing the dogs!
We finish seeing all the cats and go out of the Cat Room and I noticed the man was bent down talking to a lady who works there and we walk as fast as we can to the dog room where we lost him and I finally calmed down.
That was the weirdest thing that has happened to me in a very long time and I did not like it at all!
But I just thought I would share it with the non-viewers I have lol.


Thanks bay for holding my hand and making me feel safer even while that man was looking in at me in such a weird way!


I love my bay Andrew!
Xoxoxxx

Forever and Always!

Hello my non-viewers lol. I know noone reads this but as I said before it is basically just a diary for myself :)
Two days ago I had one of the absolute best days ever!
November 18, 2010 meant that Andrew & I had been together for 4 years! Yes, 4 years! :) Long time huh? It doesn't feel like it has been that long to me at all though, it feels like just yesterday we started dating and then spent every day after school together!
On our wonderful day though we were supposed to have made each other a gift because I didn't have a job at the time to return the favor if he were going to get me a gift. I made him a 'book' about us. I found words from magazines that I use to describe him for a page, words he uses to describe me for another page, and then 3 full pages of words about us and things we have done. I also (now I know this will sound silly but I thought it was nice) colored pictures I found that either reminded me of him/us or I thought were sweet and I added them in between each page using the same order (Drew page, my page, US pages!)
I also, starting from a week away, started writing to him daily about "7 days away and I love you because...." all the way up until one day away and sent it to him via facebook so I could be sure he got it while I was not with him. On our day I gave him our book which contained all the words pages, and coloring pages, and then the entire note of why I love him.
He read the book and when he first started he sounded surprised sort of and asked "This is good, you did this bay?" :) Hehe. Why yes I did. He finished and gave me a big kiss and told me "I loved it bay! Thanks." I felt so good, I never figured he would like it at all so I was happy he was happy with it and all the hard work I put into it.
After he read his story he went into his big walk-in closet and closed the door to change into some basketball shorts. (This might sound weird but he does it a lot actually lol.) So, I was sitting on the bed about to post my facebook status with a lovely message about our anniversary (tagging him of course lol) when he sits down beside me and says "This is what I got you"
He pulls out a small white box and takes out a smaller soft black box and hands it over to me. I am shocked and confused and happy and sad all at once when I open the box. Inside is a BEAUTIFUL silver 'open heart' key necklace! :) The one of my dreams as I had told him when I first saw a commercial for it. I started to cry instantly. I was as I said so happy but so sad at the same time. I didn't expect anything, all I had asked for was just to be with him on our day and for him to write me a note and here I was getting this amazing necklace I will love forever!!
I hugged on him and kissed him then started laughing and said "I don't want to cry!" haha. It was a very emotional moment for me. I usually get emotional when I get a gift from him lol it is always something so sweet and I just feel like he does so much for me and I don't feel like I have been able to do enough.
I know relationships are not about how much you spend on someone but about how much you mean to them and how well you treat them but you know everyone likes to be spoiled and treated to nice things. I definitely will get him a wonderful over the top, gift of his dreams this coming Christmas because..
Oh that's right!!! I have orientation at Cracker Barrel this coming Tuesday at 1 pm :)
I found out on our anniversary about this which had just made our day 1000 times better! It really put a lot of worries to the side for me and made me feel so much happier!


Well I think I have wrote enough for now, plus I think I want to take a nap. I have other things to write about so I will post another blog hopefully later today.


I love my bay! (Drew you're sooo amazing! I am so glad you're mine!)

Scared Sh**less! hehe!

IT IS NOVEMBER!!
:) How crazy is that! I swear this year has gone by very fast!
*WARNING THIS IS GOING TO BE LONG*
Anyways, I said in my last entry that I might dress up and just go to the movies to see Paranormal Activity 2 with Drew.
Well I didn't dress up but me and my bay did go to see that freaking movie. In my opinion it was not as good as the first one was, it was almost funny in some parts that should have been scary which I didn't like about the movie because I honestly get terrified about things like that so I felt like it was mocking itself ya know. Weird.
Also, I had the unfortunate chance of being in a theater with ridiculous people who of course sat RIGHT BEHIND ME! These boys who had seen the movie before were mocking it too, which I guess in a way helped me out some because instead of being scared by the movie I was irritated with the people who were repeating everything that was happening. I have honestly never been in the movies with such rude a** people before! UGH!
Oh well though, I still enjoyed the movie despite having those losers be involved in it.
After the movie though I tried so hard not to think of anything about it but of course I failed and as soon as I got into bed and was ready to fall asleep the slightest noise would make me literally jump out of my skin! It was a terrible sleepless night for me. I had a nightmare with Kristi (the lady with the short hair from the movie) in my dream but she was dressed as the other lady (Katie from the original movie) had been at the end of the 2nd movie and she was holding the baby Hunter in her arms as she came closer to me and finally jumped right into my face and that is what woke me up *and my bay lol*
It wasn't a long dream by any means but I had been too hot in my sleep and started to have a nightmare which obviously was too freaky for me to have any more of seeings how I woke up almost as soon as the nightmare began, which I am sooo thankful for!
Just for some more examples of just how scared I got, my wake up call turned out to be me literally jumping out of a dead sleep and pulling a muscle in my right leg all because I had heard Drew's printer make a noise and it seriously freaked the living daylights out of me! I cried, for two reasons, One= I just pulled a muscle in my leg and I have never done that before but it hurt soooooooooooooo bad! Two= I was so freaked out I thought someone MUST HAVE turned the printer on (someone being like a ghost lol since Drew & I were both still sleeping!)
It was a terrible way to wake up and my leg hurt for the next three days! :(
I will tell you another thing that happened a little later on, I want to talk about some other things before I write about it, don't want to scare my friend Brittany :)

So, after all the Halloween junk I went home on a Tuesday so that I could go vote. I voted for everyone that I felt truly deserved the position and would do the best job so I was very upset when Jack Conway lost to freaking Rand Paul. Ugh, it sickened me really. But what are you going to do!? This is only the second time I have ever voted and I am beginning to think I would be better off not wasting my time because I was also disappointed the first time I voted and Obama won. I did NOT want that to happen at all. People in my family felt the same way, so much so that they even went out and voted for the first time in a very long time!
It is sad that people can't see through the evil of other people and just fall into line like a zombie, voting for the wrong people who obviously have not done any of the things they talked about doing.
WHERE IS THE CHANGE!!??






Well, on another note I spent some much needed time with a bestie of mine, I call her Kee-Weezy :) (aka Krista!)
We always have a good ol time together doing a whole bunch of nothing for the most part. Just hanging out being girls, dancing and laughing. I love mine and her random adventures we have! There could be nothing better than just having fun with your best friends :) I love her :)


Brit, you probably don't want to read this, and everyone else, here is the point where you think I've lost it! Haha!




So, the night after Drew and I watched Paranormal Activity 2...Drew had to go to work at night which left me home alone for a while. I was totally cool with it though, I had the bedroom light on, the closet door open and the light on, the bathroom door open and it's light on as well. Then down the hall the light was on & also the light in the kitchen was, you guessed it, ON! I decided leaving the bedroom door open was the best because It wouldn't make me panic as much. So the night is going on just fine, I am playing on the computer, I just got off the phone with Drew while he had taken a break at work when I have to go *tinkle* hahah (TMI? TOO BAD! LOL) Well I get up and walk to the bathroom that is connected to Drew's bedroom and there is a problem with the toilet! It wont take the toilet paper because SOMEONE had put too much in there before me. So I go to the next bathroom and grab the plunger and take care of business then I go to return the plunger to the other bathroom. As I am turning to go back into Drew's room however I see someone standing in between the kitchen and the living room. Well this really freaked me out so as I get into Drew's room I SLOWLY go to grab the door to close it and as I look again I swear my mind must have a very very very vivid imagination (because I don't want to believe what I saw!) there was the da** girl who kills Micah standing with her face facing away from me towards the balcony and she is in the bloody white tank top she wears.
It freaked the SH** out of me. Omg! I have seen some creepy things before but dear lord that was a little more terrifying then anything I would expect myself to imagine!
I swear I was shaking for hours after I saw it and I begged Drew in texts to PLEASE COME HOME RIGHT NOW! I really was oober scared!
I know you all probably think I have lost my mind or something but I know what I saw and I know it may sound very hard to believe but there she was right there in the hall pretty much.
Ewwww I get goosebumps when I think of it!!


All Clear Brittany you can read again lol
And now....I am going to go watch some T.V. so that I can hopefully get that image out of my head again and go to sleep! It is 2:19 am lmao and I am supposed to get up at 9 am for some strange reason lol..
Then I get to go hang out with another bestie of mine, Brittany. We are going shopping at One :) Yay! Although I have no money but that is alright, I like to go and look at things, maybe I can find things to tell my family to get me for Christmas! That is just around the corner you know :)



Well, goodnight, I hope I didn't scare anyone off from reading my blog, If anyone even does lol.

I love my bay bay Drew :)

Happy Halloween?

So, this week was a very unpleasant one to say the least.
I dealt with a pooper who was stressed and doesn't handle that very well so I got the anger from the stress he's having from school and work :( My poor bay, he does so much!
It made me stressed too though and I was very down which was no good.
I did have a good day yesterday though, one of my wonderful sisters (Michaella) came down to stay the night with me and my mammaw because she is in ROTC and she had to be at the high school this morning by 4:30!! Pretty crazy I think but I hope she had a good time :) I wrote her a little note for her to wake up to and smile first thing.
Also yesterday two of my cousins were at the house with us, Emily & Morgan, they are such adorable little girls I love them so much! Emily is like attached to my hip anytime she is with me :) Which I love! I adore little kids! They're fun  right?!

On the topic of animals though hahaha.....I woke up to hearing two men talking outside of my house so of course I peek out of my bedroom window and what do I see...a Sheriff car and another dark blue car in my driveway. Shock!! I was really confused, the way they had parked had looked like they crashed into each other so I get dressed and go outside, neither of the men notice me of course haha. So I say "Hello officer" hahahhaa, I sounded ridiculous I'm sure but what else should I have said? I don't know haha. Well the sheriff and the man with him both say "OH! Someone does live here!" So I'm like "well yes? Did you knock?"
Neither one had bothered to knock!! lmao, men! They told me that someone who lives in the little neighborhood beside my house (I live out in the country ya know) said that they have never seen anyone there so they said our house was unoccupied. Wtf! LMAO. I've lived there almost my entire 22 years of my life lol. Whatever though, the whole reason they had been there though was because 3 of my cows had got out of their lot AGAIN! (It is the same ones every time, a bull, a cow with looooong horns and a calf) So I got my mammaw to come home right away and I ended up running all over my farm for about 15 minutes by myself chasing them around until FINALLY I got them to go back into their lot. I felt so good haha I'm not going to lie. I chased them all down and got them all in at the same time...That takes some amount of talent in my opinion haha :)

Well I'm not sure what is going to happen tonight for this lovely Halloween Night!??! I was hoping I would attend a party because I do love dressing up for this silly 'holiday.' However, my friend never gave me the address to the party I thought I would be attending...Maybe I will just dress up and go to the movies and scare myself silly when me and my bay see Paranormal Activity 2. I'm honestly oober scared out of my mind to see that movie though!
It took me forever to be able to even look at my tv when a preview of the movie would come on haha. The first one terrified me. I couldn't sleep right for at least a month and I was and still get terrified that something is going to drag me out of my bed or! If I wake up in the middle of the night and my feet are uncovered I worry about what it is that made them be that way haha.
Well I guess I am done with this for now. I'm sorry I haven't wrote but just these two posts so far...I warned you though, I don't have the internet at my home so I don't get to get online very often.

Maybe I will update this again later tonight with what really went down tonight :)

I love my bay A.W.C!
*love Brandi*

First Entry

Well, I'm not sure where to start this thing off. Today has been very uneventful, I have spent a lot of time being bored and playing games on my facebook! (sounds extra exciting huh?)
I'm not even sure what made me decide, hmm I will start a pointless blog about the nothingness I call my life, but here it is and here is where everyone will stop reading!! :)
I will try to get on here as often as I can, but not having the internet at my home will cause this to not be a daily thing, although I'm sure you wouldn't want to hear a daily bored life talk anyways.
I have felt really alone today though, I was talking with someone earlier about how often people from your past will come back into you life and say the infamous "Yes, we should totally do lunch sometime. I mean it!" and then *gasp* it never happens.
I'm sincere when I say I want to hang out with someone. If you were or are a good friend of mine you would know I love to get out and hang out with anyone I can. I hate being alone so of course if you tell me we're going to hang out I'm going to absolutely love the idea!
I will never understand why people the fake line though, I mean if you don't really want to hang out with me, then just don't make any plans with me. I will get the idea and not think so badly of you once you have let me down from suggesting a 'date' and bailing on me!
That's like a huge lie to me, and I hate liars! We will save that for another day though, as bad as it sounds I am sure I will have a big story of lies for you one day :/ Hopefully not too soon, or if I really want to make a wish, never at all.


Well, I am going to go and watch The Last Song finally, I've had it for a couple days from the Red Box and still haven't watched even half of it!! :) Oops!


I love my bay, Andrew William :)